[ her intention isn't harm alina or rhysand, she doesn't want to make this any more difficult than it already is. the selfless part of her has already spared a few thoughts for the girl, how it might feel for her to face feyre. she knows how lonely the world feels when rhys is not in your orbit, even before the mating bond set in, she felt it.

but she also knows that she needs space to process what has happened, what is happening. there are times when she can be quick to adapt but when it comes to matter of the heart, she needs time or things become... too heavy. she cannot help how that might make rhys feel torn or alina feel abandoned by him if he chooses to spend more time with her, feyre has as little say in how all this makes her feel as it makes them feel. she can only control how she feels, how she will keep her own jealousy at bay should rhysand spend the night with alina. after all, she'd been facing down countless nights without him, possibly sharing a bed with or without tamlin in the spring court. she could handle sleeping alone if she needed.]

I'm not asking you to choose between us and I never will, just... all I ask is that you give me some time. [ to get used to this place, to get to know alina, to find some sort of peace with the whole situation.

her hands move to cradle this face at that tearful laugh, drawing his mouth to hers for a kiss and then another after he finishes speaking.] It's not selfish, if I had known you were here, if I had known about any of this, I would have turned the world over to get to you. Cauldron, I would have unleashed Amren upon the world, if it meant finding a way to be here with you.